something to ponder...

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bismillahirahmanirahim...
assalamualaikum and good morrow, people!





tadaa! I don't know why but I'm really into psychologist, even before the public exam SPM. at first I thought I loved, and still loving it, because I can read people easily and I wanted to help people by giving some advice, just like a counselor. but, now I love it because of something else, that me myself could not know. it's like trying to open the Pandora's box. lol. yeah I know. it's really complicated. sometimes I regretted of ever coming to IPG because I really love psychology and I really wanted to sharpen my skills in reading people. but I am grateful also for I have been given this wonderful opportunity to join this IPG and met with some new friends ^^ 



once we are bonded by the strong thread of friendship, nothing and no one can break it except ALLAH swt...

okay, I've been thinking deeply lately. I think I should really ignore what others are feelings instead and care about what I'm thinking. for my own sake. then I started thinking again to the near and far future and thought, 'What would happened I really did that? What would their reactions? Will they still be my friends?' because lately, when I done something, I thought what others might think of it and me. then, in return hurt my own self. will I keep doing that or just change for my own sake? but I really care what others are feelings. when they are offended, guilt will automatically flow in my veins and made me unkempt. I could not take care of myself if I'm feeling so guilty, even it's not my fault. but sometimes, when they started to ignore me and talking about things unbeknownst to me, I would immediately felt left out and isolated. well, that's my wish right? but I really hate that feeling! and now, my head is sooooo confused and cannot think straight. all is in a mess! marred and polluted! will I be back in my feet? or stay clumsy and ignorant and naive? hmmm~

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