when everything seems too perfect...

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bismillahirahmanirahim~

assalamualaikum and good morrow, people! 

to err is human, to forgive divine...

long long time no update this good-for-everything blog! I've been the heck of busy lately, even my sleeping period was disturbed! =. =''' please give me some rest! just a wee bit! huhuu~ okay, where was I? hmmm~ ...HA! wait! ha, okay. fuhh~ OMG what am I blabbering about seriously?! okay, wait for it... TET! still blank. dang! OKAY! lalala~ ARGHHHH! I am really stressed, the heck seriously!

even tears aren't able to calm the storm in my heart...

here goes... I've been so messed up lately! and I don't even know why! on one day I was smiling wide like a cat, then the next, I am gloomy as a stormy day! arghhh! I think it is because of the stress! my work problems mixed up with my personal ones. what to do?! even that day my grammar was in topsy-turvy and I was really in a bad mood because of that! even crying can't calm me down! I think I really need to scream my lungs out! but I need a sound-proof room to scream, if not, sue me once, shame me twice! huhuu~ just now, I just walked around, wondering and singing out loud like a crazy person on the grounds. after that, I felt a wee bit better than before. at least... damn! but when I came back in my room, I am stressed, AGAIN! waterpark?! arghhh!

all I wanted to see is genuine smiles on your faces...

'tis when I see pain in their eyes, I myself will feel the pain they felt...

everytime when I sensed sorrow and pain hiding in their faces, I felt like crying as well. I know it's lame right, but it's just me... just the typical me. I just wish and pray that all the sorrows and pains would just go away and leave them alone, my beloved ones. just leave. pain I see is the pain I get. and please, to those whom I refer this to, please smile again, paint a sincere smile on your faces. no more plastic smiles where I could see the chemicals and pollutants. please, I beg of you...

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