Read, Write and Recite

BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRAHIM! good morrow, people! "...to be or not to be. that's the question." OMG! the thing that I really dislike... I mean, HATE, the most is... ACTING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE! especially when it contains memorizing and really acting properly. ugh. I really hate that. furthermore, I am 'somewhat' one of the most important character also in the modified Shakespearean drama, Much Ado About Nothing. it's been modified so that the settings are in the Borneo Island, well basically at Sabah and Sarawak and the time is around the 16th century. so, no big cities or contemporary stuffs. all old school and all are indigenous people. I was chosen to be the father to one of the heroine in the drama, which is Leonato a.k.a. Lento (Borneo style name), a father to Hero a.k.a. Henna (Borneo style name). cool, isn't it? I'm a governor of a district or region in Sabah. *sound effect* uuuu~ hahaha!  he a.k.a. Lento has quite a few lines, and yeah... I ...

bismillahirahmanirahim... [BGM : Yuna & Chris Blade - Favourite Thing ] have you ever wondered why everything is build and in the end, they are broken down again...? I always wonder the same thing for thousands of years (exaggerating much ._.) it's the same for me. when I start to build up my confidence once more, there is always something, always tries to break it down again and again and again. curse that 'something'.  I've been broken enough by those words and eyes that would always judge without thinking of knowing me closer and closer. that's why gaps are created between us. us? who? it's obvious lol. it's me and them. them as in the people around me. duh. noticed. I noticed that some are trying to keep themselves away from me, trying to not be hurt by me. me, the troublemaker, the problematic boy. when we try to build yourself up, just remember that there are thousands of bulldozers trying to break you down. just keep building and find ...

bismillahirahmanirahim... today, I'm gonna share something on what a friend should have. this is just on my personal point of view, nonetheless. 1. TRUST yes, trust. friends should trust each other. if you're doubting him or her, even on a little thing, then cross yourself out from their list. 2. LOYALTY loyalty is important as betrayal will bring you suffering and pain. from who? the one you betrayed. 3. ACCEPTANCE one must accept their friends for their flaws and for they are and not to mock them for it. never try to change who they are. 4. KIND of course you must be kind to others, and to your friends as well. never take them for granted or misuse their kindness. 5. FAIR and JUST be fair and just to your friends, all your friends. never be bias to them and never choose a favourite friend. this will cause havoc and disaster. 6. CARING care for them or die yourself. a friend should care for their friends and never push them even down. ...

bismillahirahmanirahim... damn it's been busy for the past couple of weeks! arghhhh! ya ALLAH, please ease up everything for me! huhuhuu~ I am loud, but unheard... I am clear, but unseen... I am here, but unreached... sometimes, I really wish that I was gone... not existed in this cruel world. my childish behaviour really had gone out of mind. I know sometimes it would be the most annoying thing to you guys. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. but please don't worry about me. I am nothing to you guys. my tears are nothing to you guys. just let me be and walk pass me. treat me like a garbage, a trash, a worthless thing. I'm not giving up yet, it's just I'm giving up on you. I've been hurt too much, especially when it comes to friends. I've been punched, kicked, spitted. it's just nothing. but when I'm being ignored, especially when it comes to my friends, it really hurt much. sometimes I wish that I would just be someone that you guys ...