The Aftermath of Struggle, Pain and Experience

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh and hey, peeps!
Such a warm and sunny morning we have 'ere, aite?

          Again, after quite a long hiatus from this beloved blog of mine, I feel like to write something about what happened recently in my life. If you know me, I won't blog about something that is not important and meaningful (for me), and even if it's not important to you, as if I care 'cause it's my blog, peeps. Not yours, mine, okay? Okay good. 

My Practicummates--Dadaw and Aizat

          If you are following me on my multiple social media i.e. Instagram, Facebook or Twitter, you'll know that I'm a trainee teacher, training at an institute, specialised in training future primary school teachers and I am already in my final year of Degree. In the first semester of the final year, we have to undergo three months of (painstakingly, tiresome professional practice programme also known as) Practicum in a school given by the institute (specifically the Practicum Unit). We had chosen this one school which is an excellent cluster school or Sekolah Kluster Kecemerlangan (SKK) in Malay, and there is one word that I use to describe this school; (very) tiresome.

          The three months of (torturing) schooling here had taught me so many things about myself, my friends and the reality of the teaching profession. I'll start off with the teaching profession, in which most of us overlook as an easy and loose profession. Being a teacher is not only holding a chalk or a marker, opening a textbook and talking all day long. Main purpose of a teacher is to make his pupils understand what he is teaching in front of the class. This includes preparing multiple teaching aids and such so that pupils will understand better without the teacher translating the terms. Okay, that covers like one tenth of a teacher's duty and responsibility. Others that I could list out are that of being a clerk, a coach, an emergency driver, a counselor, an interior designer, a landscaper, a night owl and many more to come. Those who have yet experienced being a teacher would not understand the struggles and aches. And that's why I despise those who disregard and diminish the teaching profession.

          Up next is about my friends--wait, more accurately, the bonds that I have with them. To those who still doesn't know me, I am the type of person who can easily empathise and adapt to what others are feeling when I'm around them. Especially when I'm emotionally stressed out. If you're happy and laughing, I would be the same. If you're sad and crying, I could feel the same as well. If you're negative and yapping, yes, you guessed it, I'll be negative as well. Positivity I can still withstand, but if you're bringing negativity around you, well then, eff you. I'm the type of person who dislikes negativity and it can seriously affect me inside and out. It can affect my mood in a negative way and no, you don't want to see me this way. I can easily lash out on people and yeah, I lashed out on my closest friends here in IPG. During my practicum period, I've been stressing out so much and I vent out in an aggressive manner towards my friends and it had also scarred our bonds.

          I hate being the aggressive me (in which I had given a name to him, Strauss). Strauss would take over my body and ruin everything in his path. Like how he's ruined what I had with my friends. I was really grateful that I could fix things before things get worse and worse. And this is about me. Things were really hard at first. But to my advantage, I like it hard. Why? Cause I learn better the hard way. Like when I lose my friends, I learn to treasure them better. Like how I do things last minutes, I'll try to do them earlier (in which I still procrastinate. Sigh.) Another sigh. Okay, now I don't know what else to write. Guess I'll just stop here. I'll write more about myself later in the upcoming ones. Just pray that I'll be more hardworking in posting and writing this blog of mine.

          All in all, this professional practice a.k.a. Practicum is really a good way to expose to the teacher trainees about the teaching profession. A really good eye-opener. More experience and pain you're having, more things will be unveiled in your eyes and mind. Just that, to other people out there who had no idea how it is being a teacher, stop mocking, diminishing and belittling this profession. We are teaching your--our future generations. Just give us support morally and if asked, financially and physically cause really, we teachers do need help sometimes. Aite, I think that's all for now. Bye.

Here's a picture of me with my fans (kiddos hahaha)
And the one in the school uniform is a practicummate from UniSZA

footnote: I've been procrastinating on this post for such a long time already. I wanted to post this right after I finished my practicum but my laziness gets the best of me. Sorry haha.