Read, Write and Recite

assalamualaikum wbt yup. there are some things we overlooked when we are feeling thankful and grateful. and I'm writing this is actually as a reminder for myself. when someone did something to me just now, I realized almost everything about my life now. and now, I'm writing this so that I can share these things with everyone. FIRST, our life. now that we are alive, we should always be grateful to our God that we are alive today. for when they are someone, somewhere, their lives had been taken from them, leaving only their rigid bodies, they didn't have the time to say, "Thank you for my life." and it's kinda hurtful when someone says, "I hate my life." or "My life is so boring." or "I hope that I have a life like yours." well, THESE PEOPLE have no respect of their own precious lives. every life is unique. every life is important. every life is precious. just stop right now and be grateful and say "Thank you for I...

assalamualaikum wbt long time no write in this virtual diary of mine... laugh and the world laughs with you; weep and you will weep alone... now here I am writing again in this holy fasting month, Ramadhan. (what?) yes it is. ahlan wa sahlan, ya Ramadhan... on the first day of fasting today, I felt a bit calmer. but inside, there is a chaos going on. I don't know what is happening nowadays but I think that I am entering the 'turbulent period' of my own life. you know, when you feel like you wanted to rebel and throw tantrums here and there. yeah, it's like that. humans are basically and naturally like this; if you feel unsatisfied with something, you should go find someone and kill. or you can just find a gun and aim at your head and pull the trigger or you can find a sharp knife and slit your throat with it. nah, I'm just kidding. just throw tantrums and stuff is enough. no need to be aggressive anyways. you still need to live. even though most people ...

Expectation… expect. what do you always expect? is it a thing? do you want it from someone?  sometimes, we expect something great from someone. although that someone has done nothing to you, you would always want to expect from that someone. whether that person is your classmate, colleague, acquaintance, friend, and even your best friend, you would always expect something. expectation is like climbing a tall mountain. we won’t know what’s on the other side until you have reached a peak. reaching the peak has many challenges and hindrances along the way. but in the end, what's on the top that counts  – whether it is a cliff with bottomless end or a hidden floral plain with sweet fragrance.  expecting something would end up in either a happy or sad ending, depending on the situation you are in. if you chose to expect something great from someone you trust and in the end, that someone would just escape from the expectation and that would seriously hurt you...

bismillahirahmanirahimmm~ assalamualaikum wbt and good morrow... my mood today is quite in a mix. like in a washing machine, where everything gets mixed up. okay first, I am happy because I finished my mock exam today and the holiday mood heightened up! muahahaha XD I cannot wait to go back! huhuhuu~ one more day here and then buhbye to the second semester of foundation! when one side of the earth is shone, the other is full of shadow and darkness... now comes the sad part. MY BELOVED MARY IS GOING AWAYYYY~! waaaa! I can't believe that she is leaving us! Mary, you are my best friend here, alongside with Sue Zhen, Claudi and Casey! but without you now, we are incomplete! huhuu~ I will text you, wechat you and even whatsapp you also! waaaa~ MARY! so sad that you had to leave! I hope that I have the chance to go to Sabah and visit you! we could go to Kundasang, Sepilok, KK, 1B and any other interesting places in Sabah! huhuhuuu~ GONNA MISS YOU MARY! and remember that we alway...

BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRAHIM! good morrow, people! "...to be or not to be. that's the question." OMG! the thing that I really dislike... I mean, HATE, the most is... ACTING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE! especially when it contains memorizing and really acting properly. ugh. I really hate that. furthermore, I am 'somewhat' one of the most important character also in the modified Shakespearean drama, Much Ado About Nothing. it's been modified so that the settings are in the Borneo Island, well basically at Sabah and Sarawak and the time is around the 16th century. so, no big cities or contemporary stuffs. all old school and all are indigenous people. I was chosen to be the father to one of the heroine in the drama, which is Leonato a.k.a. Lento (Borneo style name), a father to Hero a.k.a. Henna (Borneo style name). cool, isn't it? I'm a governor of a district or region in Sabah. *sound effect* uuuu~ hahaha!  he a.k.a. Lento has quite a few lines, and yeah... I ...

bismillahirahmanirahim... [BGM : Yuna & Chris Blade - Favourite Thing ] have you ever wondered why everything is build and in the end, they are broken down again...? I always wonder the same thing for thousands of years (exaggerating much ._.) it's the same for me. when I start to build up my confidence once more, there is always something, always tries to break it down again and again and again. curse that 'something'.  I've been broken enough by those words and eyes that would always judge without thinking of knowing me closer and closer. that's why gaps are created between us. us? who? it's obvious lol. it's me and them. them as in the people around me. duh. noticed. I noticed that some are trying to keep themselves away from me, trying to not be hurt by me. me, the troublemaker, the problematic boy. when we try to build yourself up, just remember that there are thousands of bulldozers trying to break you down. just keep building and find ...

bismillahirahmanirahim... today, I'm gonna share something on what a friend should have. this is just on my personal point of view, nonetheless. 1. TRUST yes, trust. friends should trust each other. if you're doubting him or her, even on a little thing, then cross yourself out from their list. 2. LOYALTY loyalty is important as betrayal will bring you suffering and pain. from who? the one you betrayed. 3. ACCEPTANCE one must accept their friends for their flaws and for they are and not to mock them for it. never try to change who they are. 4. KIND of course you must be kind to others, and to your friends as well. never take them for granted or misuse their kindness. 5. FAIR and JUST be fair and just to your friends, all your friends. never be bias to them and never choose a favourite friend. this will cause havoc and disaster. 6. CARING care for them or die yourself. a friend should care for their friends and never push them even down. ...