Read, Write and Recite

bismillahirahmanirahim! assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh and a very very berry good morrow, humans! Y ^____^ Y OMGOMGOMGOMG! I think this night a.k.a. night of 27th March 2013 was the best night I had ever had in the history of 2013! alhamdulillah! I am grateful to you, oh ALLAH for making this night my best. night. EVER! okay, let me re-tell the story again from A to Z. okay first, it started from yesterday as we, as in me, Fafaa, Sikin, Nana and Anie, were discussing of going to Sibu for shopping and hanging out, and also for buying stuff for the BBQ the next day. unfortunately, we had some transportation problem, so alas, we just went to Sarikei, as in me, Fafaa, Sikin and Anie. Nana couldn't make it because she had to send her brother to the airport. huhuu~ (we are incomplete! waaaa~) Fafaa as the driver and I as the co-pilot, so we just went to Sarikei, without Nana... *sobs* at first, we had our brunch at a restaurant called E.H. Delight's. th...

bismillahirahmanirahim... I'm suddenly active in updating my blog, huh? well, AS IF people will read it. some are just too 'busy' to read it. AT LEAST learn something about my past BEFORE starting to JUDGE me. none is judge of others as they are the only judge of themselves... sometimes, I even wonder why did I make my own blog? what I thought at first, first, I'm a no one. second, who am I to post a blog? third, it's just about my life and not educational, religious, political, et cetera stuffs. fourth, I'm just an ordinary kid. and LOL! the first, second and fourth are as the same thing -. -''' whatever. the thing I hate is when I have problems and stuff, they would ask me. and THEY SHOULD NOT ASK ME DIRECTLY! because I hate talking. so, sometimes, I put it in my blog or something. so, JUST READ IT. shut it and read. and another thing you guys should know about me. I don't like to express myself. and how do I express myself? through my...

bismillahirahmanirahim... assalamualaikum and good morrow, people! tadaa! I don't know why but I'm really into psychologist, even before the public exam SPM. at first I thought I loved, and still loving it, because I can read people easily and I wanted to help people by giving some advice, just like a counselor. but, now I love it because of something else, that me myself could not know. it's like trying to open the Pandora's box. lol. yeah I know. it's really complicated. sometimes I regretted of ever coming to IPG because I really love psychology and I really wanted to sharpen my skills in reading people. but I am grateful also for I have been given this wonderful opportunity to join this IPG and met with some new friends ^^  once we are bonded by the strong thread of friendship, nothing and no one can break it except ALLAH swt... okay, I've been thinking deeply lately. I think I should really ignore what others are feelings instead and c...

bismillahirahmanirahim... assalamualaikum and good morrow... when one side is shone by the Sun, the other will be covered by dark shadows... hello again. so, yesterday I posted about my 'good' side. now, I'm going to expose about my dark side, my evil side, my bad side. *post script! this post my resulting of you hating me, despising me, ignoring me. if you want to do so, please, feel free to read. I bet none will not read this. who am I to you right? 一 I'm always paranoid. sometimes I think, felt and know that something that I dislike is going to happen and I really become stress when I think about it. 二 I really over-think things. and it always made me feel tensed and stressed out.  三 I could easily feel jealous, especially towards my friends and BEST FRIENDS. when they do something I wanted to do with someone else, my heart will ache easily.  四 I'm an emotional wreck. I get moody and gloomy sometimes, some with reasons, some out of the blue. but...

bismillahirahmanirahim... assalamualaikum wbt and good evening. 'tis post is especially to introduce myself more to you guys. many had mistaken me, many had ignored me. but this one is for my positive or good part of me. *post script! this is not me talking big about myself. I'm just being honest and not a hypocrite, as well as a stuck-up freak. IF YOU DO think so, leave. 一 I'm quite a friendly guy, once you get to know me better. but too friendly when you are close to my heart already (means that you are my close/good friend already) 二 I'm caring towards others. especially when it comes to my friends. I can't see them sad, especially the girls. they have fragile heart. break one and I'll break your 206 bones. 三 adding to the second one, I'm quite a protective person. especially when it comes to friends. 四 I respect others. especially when it's someone that I barely know, the elderly and the seniors. 五 I think about others first, then me....

bismillahirahmanirahim~ assalamualaikum wbt and good evening to all! TOMORROW I'M GOING BACK! WEEEEE~ omg lol! I'm just THAT over excited about going back... well, not really. I don't know why I don't feel like to have the mood of going back... hmmm~ well, maybe my friends who had to stay here because of some problems made me think for a while, 'I should thank ALLAH for giving me all this opportunity to go back while my other friends had to stay here and be far from their beloved family.' I wonder and wonder and wonder... if I could help them, I would help them. but sadly, I'm just a student of no power in his hand. huhuhu~ well, enough about that. actually, I'm here to confess something... I actually fell in love with someone here. wanna know who? well, NOT IN A MILLION BILLION TRILLION GAZILLION YEARS! huh! I fell in love with her long time ago and not that long in the past also. maybe in the near future also? hmmm~ who knows? kay, wanna know abo...

bismillahirahmanirahim! assalamualaikum and a very good night I bid to all! fuhhhh~ I felt a little better now. no more crying, no more moody, no more gloomy! hahaha XD I think I just lack of sleep, that's why I've been like that before >< never ever ever going back to that state, EVER! well, not exactly. THAT state helped me many times before. huhuu~ well, enough about me. this week was quite a good week. why? because there were less lectures! why? the lecturers are busy! why? I don't know exactly LOL. hahaha! but... uh-oh. I think I don't like this 'but' in this paragraph. huhuu~ tomorrow we got KOT! what's that? well, KOT is short form for Annual Sports Tournament or Kejohanan Olahraga Tahunan . and tomorrow, I need to join the march for my sport house. and damn it was boring! the heck?! my school's scout could do even better than that! tch! then you call yourselves teachers... -. -''' oh well, just go with the flow and get it ov...

bismillahirahmanirahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimmmmm~ assalamualaikum and a very very berry good mornight to everyone! YEAY! lol! I don't know why am I so enthusiastic today! keke n__n and I don't even know why I chose that title as the post head o__O lol okay... fuhhh~ ah! now I know. today is so weird to me. when I am in a good mood, others are the opposite. yeah I know right! some even cried! okay...? what's wrong with the world I'm living?! huhuu~ well, one of my friends is worried. why? because she is too popular among the guys. where? here on the compounds. she is feeling insecure because she afraid that too many is too much for her. and she didn't even know what to do with them! OMG! poor her. well, I can't deny that she IS that pretty okay, that's why all the guys are ogling and staring at her! I need to keep her safe! wacha! shiahhhhh! haiya! my dear friend whom I referring to, don't worry! I will keep you safe! hahaha XD SUPER ABANG TO THE RESCUE!...

BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRAHIM! assalamualaikuuuuum and a very very good morrow! How many notes written . . . ink smeared like birdprints in snow. not good enough not pretty enough not smart enough dear mother and father. I apologize for disappointing you. I've worked very hard, not good enough harder, perhaps to please you. If only I were a son, shoulders broad as the sunset threading through pine, I would see the light in my mother's eyes, or the golden pride reflected in my father's dream of my wide, male hands worthy of work and comfort. I would swagger through life muscled and bold and assured, drawing praises to me like currents in the bed of wind, virile with confidence. not good enough not strong enough not good enough I apologize. Tasks do not come easily. Each failure, a glacier. Each disapproval, a bootprint. Each disappointment, ice above my river. So I have worked hard. not good enough. My sacrifice I ...

bismillahirahmanirahim...! assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh and good evening, people! wewitt! fuhhhhh~ let me calm myself down first... OH YEAHHHHHHHHHHH! alhamdulillah ! I'm going back to my beloved and lovely hometown this semester break! yeayyyyyyy! free from stress, even for a week only! huhuu~ gonna do all sorts of things when I get back, play games such as MapleStory and DotA, watch movies and dramas, plus animes also! hehee XD then, gonna spend time with my family and friends as well! I really miss you Syifa, Shiqin, Nana and Anie! when I get back, lets hangout and play some more! hehehe XD again, I wanna say thank you Allah and my mum also ^^ if it weren't for her, I wouldn't be able to go back! huhu~ dearest mother, I love you so and if I were to be a teacher later on, insyaALLAH I will pay you back, in any way! love you lots mummy! hehehe XD Its good to leave each day behind, like flowing water, free of sadness. Yesterday is gone & its tale...

bismillahirahmanirahim... assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh and good morrow, humans! for a start, let's recite Ummul Kitab la-Fatihah first. hehe. okay!... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH! sorry for the bad behaviour. I've been so stressed lately (omg, I don't know how many times already I kept saying that -. -''') and I also have been so emotional these past few days. crying felt like it was my favourite hobby of all time! LIKE SERIOUSLY! arghhhhhh! I think basically I was influenced by the surrounding, which were all quite moody nowadays and made me felt the same way as well! waaaa~ you know me right? I could not see nor feel sadness in front or near me. it could drag me along as well. screw it. huhuu~ other than that, my busyness with work also 'helped' my stress to increase. 'awesome' right? huhuu~ plus I need to edit a documentary video about Kanang Anak Langkau, who was the nation's hero. as the director is a big fan of him, we, the ...

bismillahirahmanirahim~ assalamualaikum and good morrow, people!  to err is human, to forgive divine... long long time no update this good-for-everything blog! I've been the heck of busy lately, even my sleeping period was disturbed! =. =''' please give me some rest! just a wee bit! huhuu~ okay, where was I? hmmm~ ...HA! wait! ha, okay. fuhh~ OMG what am I blabbering about seriously?! okay, wait for it... TET! still blank. dang! OKAY! lalala~ ARGHHHH! I am really stressed, the heck seriously! even tears aren't able to calm the storm in my heart... here goes... I've been so messed up lately! and I don't even know why! on one day I was smiling wide like a cat, then the next, I am gloomy as a stormy day! arghhh! I think it is because of the stress! my work problems mixed up with my personal ones. what to do?! even that day my grammar was in topsy-turvy and I was really in a bad mood because of that! even crying can't calm me down! I think I rea...